I just don't understand myself. I've already firgure it out that he cannot commit. Not that he doesn't want to but he is just not ready for it. He just finished a very immature relationship with a big fat LEACH. I pity him for not having guidance in commiting, but hey...it's not my fault because I still don't know him that time. I just don't understand myself why I'm still sticking around. Well yesterday I'm really sure that I'm just being a good friend. But I can't figure out what is the real reason that I'm staying. I know myself better thatn this, I know that I will not stay just because I want to be a good friend.
When he thanked me last night, he mentioned that he's really grateful having me around and that he is sorry if he cannot return the favor. I felt really bad and cheap. I'm not sticking just because I want him to realize that he made a big mistake letting me go (Eventhough that's actually my original plan). I know that I'm still not evil because I didn't actually pushed through with it. But why am I still sticking? I really have to figure it out tonight or else I'll make myself believe that it's because I want him to return the favor...I'm so hoping that it'll not end up that way.
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feeling: numb Posted by pinkpill at 12:47 PM on November 6, 2007 2 blah! blah!